Iam incredibly bored. I just got my period and the weather just started to be bright, hot and beautiful, one of those days that is meant to go to the beach. Instead of going to the beach, I stayed inside, partly because my friends are not allowed going outside because their mommies won't let them even though they are freaking 22 years old and they have degrees and have fucking professional careers and another part is because I rely on them too much to have fun. And Iam also on my period.
This summer has not been bad, I got to go on a vacation but not with my friends, I went alone, and met a lot of wonderful people, whom I got drunk with, had fun with, and danced and visited a lot of places with. I miss them a lot. And when i was in that trip I ended up loosing about 10 pounds. When i came back home, I stopped doing a lot of things, My daily activities consisted of waking up, brushing my teeth, taking a shower and watching television. And the occasional bickering with my mother. She always annoys me about when am I going to do my LSAT, that Law school test, because she expects me to go to law school this year and that is what she has been telling everybody she knows. Even though I have always been telling her that I am going back to University to get my one credit and the Law school won't happen until I finish my degree, go vacationing in cuba, interning in Africa for an NGO and then I will consider taking the LSAT which might possibly lead me to law school. You see her english isn't good, so me explaining this to her several times is still confusing to her or she just refuses to hear this because the fiction that she has created of me being a lawyer in a year and then marrying a guy she chose possibly next year sounds much better to her so she is going to stick with it. So these are my daily activities. It isn't much and that unfortunately is causing to eat a lot and gain my old weight back.
I used to tip scales at 160 and 170lbs. My mom thinks that it is absolutely fine to be in that weight. but my doctor tells me that Iam extremely overweight. But now I am about 145lbs, which I am happy about, but Iam gaining weight again.I have started to run, I ran this year two 5Km and got two medals for it. But I have signed up for 10Km run. I have to be fit shape to run. But my will power have been bogged down by my boredom. You see when I am bored I eat. Also my laziness has appeared back and that is due to my lack of work. I can't imagine my life without school sometimes, what will I do. My plan this year is to become financially independent, so I can first afford to live on my own and create my retirement fund. I need to live on my own, it has been frustrating living with my parents and my brothers. They are not bad as they used to be, but I would like to live where i am not questioned all the time and I have the choice of relationships I can have. It has been extremely depressing living in these suburbs. My family has never lived in the suburbs, we first moved in to the mississauga suburbs when I was 16 years old and I have never been satisfied. When I chose the university near my house it was for economic reasons, I dont regret it, because I actually saved myself from paying loans and high interests. But I have no actual excuses now for not living on my own, I need to!!! And I am eyeing myself to live in Montreal because of their rent controlled apartments.